Or to stay is better?

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Living in a dream,
Breathing in a scream,
Running from the chasing specters,
That keeps on haunting me,

Waking up is an escape,
Or to stay is better?

Izinkan aku pergi bila tiba di persimpangan.

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Sudah lama tak bermadah,
Bukan sibuk urusan kerja,
Tapi dibelenggu suasana,
Pasang surut emosi gila,

Makin ke depan terasa makin susah,
Makin perlahan rasa berat kaki melangkah,
Berjuang bukan untuk siapa,
Untuk diri sendiri jua,

Walau kerap memujuk diri,
Cukuplah berjuang tunggulah mati,
Kudrat tak mampu menanggung beban,
Yang membatu di kepala dan hati,

Perjalanan ini mungkin masih panjang,
Izinkan aku pergi bila tiba di persimpangan.

Where this path leads me.

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Why is it so hard,
To feel the simplest things,
Like the joy and happiness,
And living up my dreams,

Things get harder,
And harder to breathe,
Only expectations,
Turned disappointment it seems,

If this is the journey,
For me to get through,
I wish I could live to see,
Where this path leads me.

Of never-ending spiral.

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There are so many things,
I wish I didn’t hear,
I wish I didn’t see,
And wish I didn’t have to live through,

Some were painful,
Some were ridiculous,
Some were heartbreaking,
And some were unbearable,

They live in me,
Suffocating me while I try to breath,
Killing me while I try to live,
And haunting me like an enemy,

Trapping me in an endless cycle,
Of never-ending spiral.

And gravitating void.

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I wonder what others do,
In my shoes right now,
When screaming no longer,
Break the bricks inside me,
When crying no longer,
Console the drying heart,
When writing down a word,
Feels blank and empty,

Surrounded by the stillness,
And gravitating void.