You know I am down,
When I don’t say anything,
You know I am down,
When I play love songs,
You know I am down,
When comedies are on the screen,
You know I am down,
When all I want to do is laugh,
You know I am down,
When I no longer feel like getting up,
You know I am down,
And you did nothing.
No matter how much you cried,
The tears never dry,
It only stopped,
When you feel weary,
Tired and down,
You don’t know why,
You even cry,
The world seems too dark,
Without a glimpse of light,
But don’t blame yourself,
Because I know,
You tried.
The eerie voices,
Disturbing the silent night,
The ghost of the past.
Back when things are better,
And your smiles made it better,
Didn’t know that it would end,
Right now we are not even friend,
I wish I can turn back time,
And still make you mine,
Turn out it’s impossible,
Until now I feel miserable,
Like it has been after we broke up,
Sad things can be true,
You are but memories too,
As I couldn’t erase it in me,
Falling for you made me be,
I just couldn’t figure out,
No matter how much I tried,
All I see is you,
Zagging life is harder now.
Aku bukan jenis yang suka bersuara,
Biar luahan aku dari pena,
Semakin dipendam semakin berduka,
Ingin dilepaskan biarkan sempurna,
Tak kisah ini puisi atau lagu,
Anggaplah ini tuangan rindu,
Dari bekas yang pernah berisi dulu,
Kini tinggal bekas perasaan sendu,
Emosiku kelaut setiap hari,
Dari setiap bangun ke setiap mimpi,
Makin sukar dihalang makin kencang,
Makin bergolak besar sukar dihalang,
Aku keliru apa yang harus aku lakukan,
Haruskah aku mendekat untuk penjelasan,
Tapi ini cerita sudah lama,
Berkubur tanpa nisan bersama,
Sudahlah sampai disini sahaja,
Jangan biarkan hatiku merapu menjaja,
Cinta kita sudah tiada makna,
Hanya kenangan yang indah belaka.
I am afraid to fall asleep,
If I sleep it means to dream,
And the dreams I had,
Are not the nice one either,
Mostly intense and confusing,
Filled with strangers,
And unknown places,
With urges for the uncertainties,
Even after I woke up,
I can’t tell if I am still dreaming,
Or already up and awake,
Or probably still sleeping,
I know that some have meanings,
Some just the thoughts playing,
It doesn’t matter because it wore me out,
Countless of times I opened my eyes and shout,
I just want to sleep and wake up,
Like the sunrise shines bright.
Aku pernah bertanya,
Kenapa aku wujud di dunia,
Sebagai manusia dan bukan binatang,
Yang lebih bebas hidupnya,
Seperti kucing dengan tidurnya,
Seperti burung dengan sayapnya,
Seperti ikan dengan lautannya,
Aku cari jawapan,
Aku dipanggil orang yang berfikir,
Aku menjadi orang yang bertanya,
Aku mengerti darjatnya seorang manusia,
Manusia itu banyak tanggungjawab,
Sesama manusia dan makhluk yang lain,
Menjadi pembela pada yang nyata dan ghaib,
Manusia itu banyak kerenah,
Manusia itu serupa tapi tak sama,
Manusia itu juga tidak sempurna,
Manusia itu penuh dengan sangsi,
Jadi aku ini manusia yang bagaimana?
Adakah aku mampu memilih?
Adakah aku mampu mengubah?
Adakah aku ini mempunyai erti dan makna?
Jawapannya mudah,
Yang penting kau berfikir dan bertanya,
Sebab kau adalah golongan manusia yang sentiasa disebut,
Tak salah kau mencari makna,
Walau penat dan sukar dalam pencarian,
Jawapannya itu ada,
Aku hanyalah hamba.
There were times it was warm,
It brought comfort and calm,
Felt like bed of roses,
Angelic choruses,
For how long should I wait,
For Fate to orchestrate.
I was like the moon,
Different phases,
As the day passes,
As the shadows swoon,
After through all that,
It tires me out,
Dimmed by reflection,
Infatuation,
I lacked strength and will,
Want to change but still,
Till I found fire,
A strong desire,
Burn me in passion,
Ruthless invasion,
Now it has begun,
I became the sun.
I would swallow it,
All the pills to feel,
Pain to walk on it,
As long as it heals,
A self made reason,
To stay in prison.
