Inside your heart

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Let me be straight,
On the things,
If you ask me,
What I like about you,

First and foremost,
It will be how attractive,
Your personality is,
A fiery but fragile soul,

Then, your appearances,
Others do not see them,
But I see yours,
As perfectly constructed they are,

Whenever I spend more time with you,
The calming aura from you, settled me down,
Making me fell deeper and deeper,
To your arms,

What are all these admiration,
If they were ignored,
And not placed where it truly belongs,
Inside your heart.

But I exploded

Let me tell you my story,
The story of my day,
The day that can happen to anyone,
Not just me and not just today,

My day started great,
As the sun risen up to greet me,
Giving my morning wishes,
It was more than great,

I texted to the person I care,
They replied and texted back,
Some don’t know I really care,
Some feels the same, close, like a pack,

My working day started as usual,
The work and the staring game with the monitor,
Then came lunch time, better than usual,
I had an awesome meaty lunch as the initiator,

I went home on time,
Using the latest tech available in town,
The journey was smooth and golden dime,
Until a part of it that drag everything down,

Later that night I lost my composure,
Things getting hectic and disastrous,
I have no confidence of myself and unsure,
Of how I am still a time bomb and dangerous,

I let out no voice,
But I exploded.

 

Nonexistent in my life

When you want to tell,
No one listens,
When they want to hear,
Your mouth shuts tight,

The best thing is,
To have someone close,
To share and listen,
But nonexistent in my life.

Will You Stop For A While?

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Will you stop for a while,
Come and read mine,
Through each lines,
You will find the words,

As if I am speaking,
Inside your mind,
Using your own voice,
You just realized it,

You continue reading,
After the first and second,
Now you are reading slowly,
The third stanza,

Now you began to wonder,
Where is the message,
What are you reading,
Why you keep on reading,

The answer is simple,
I took your time away.

To be listened

To write is to express,
The untold emotions,
Be it light as feather,
Or heavy like a boulder,

To express is to convert,
From mind to written,
And then to be read,
In silence or loud,

To read is to listen,
The voice inside,
Hear the scream,
And wake up from the dream,

Here I am a poet,
Writing and expressing,
Converting my thoughts,
To be listened.

Ally’s Thoughts: Why Be Worried?

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Hi everyone!

We are in the middle of July. The month of Cancer and Leo. The Summer’s heat and the blue beach. And seven month after we passed 2017. How are you?

Today I want to share something that has been bugging me all week.

 

Have you ever felt that heavy sensation in your heart but then you were not really thinking about anything. Even after you cleared  your mind, you can still feel that sensation stuck in your heart.

I had that feel a lot of time. I don’t even know why or how it happened. Maybe it was my mood. So, I decided to google up ‘What do I feel right now?’.

I tried the quizzes available one by one. I received two answers!

HAPPY and WORRIED.

I know they are not really accurate but I think it does answer my question a little. I was happy and I was worried as well. The thoughts and feeling instantly switching itself and slowly driving me a little bit depressed.

I realized the reason why I felt this way. I have plans in upcoming weeks and actually almost every week. However in those plan, there are some uncertainties which I can’t control. Therefore, it made me anxious and worried but the thoughts of realizing the plan made me excited and happy.

Being a little worried is fine but not too worried. It hinders mind and productivity as well. Even the moment I put my words right now, I am worried and I can’t help to feel the pressure in my chest.

So how can I let this go?

To feel worried is a part of something bigger. Being worried is just a result and not the contributing factors. In order to feel less worried you need to understand what made you worried.

Let’s say that you found the reason that made you worried. Treat it as a problem. A problem can be small or big but doesn’t mean you can’t solve it. To solve it might take time and energy but work it slowly as long as you have progress.

Problem solving is a skill that we need to polish. How we look at it, how we approach it, what are the risks, what are the strategic possibilities and more.

So, how do I approach my problem?

I have some plans but it’s all about the timing right now. So basically, I’m going with  the flow right now even though I do took some initiatives but to no avail. I’m trying to be positive but I can’t help to feel scared and worried.

I want to apologize if my words today is a little off or non understandable. The moment I’m writing this, I am still worried and stuff. I want to write but my head feels light and my brain doesn’t work in the most optimum condition.

Even so, I do appreciate some of the posts I read in my Reader. Some of them are wonderful poems. Some are amazing motivations. I enjoyed it so much and it made me smile!

Depend who is asking

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I know I am not the type,
With top spectacular style,
Far from the looks of celebrities,
Nor with the wealth,

I am not sure,
What are the qualities in me,
Perhaps I am one with none,
Make sense in a sense,

Will I change,
Depend who is asking.