Short Story: The Witness

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The Witness.
by Ally L.

It is quite late as Amy entering the 24-hours stores to get something for her hunger state condition. As she entered, it triggers the door chime and the store staff greets her with the most friendly smile followed by their greeting slogan. Amy head straight to the chips rack hoping to find something to her liking. She turn around and starting to browse the chocolates and candies offered. Right now she is hungry and yet she shows no interest and have no idea what should she get. She walks to the next section where the instant noodles cleverly arranged.

While she slowly go through the various brands and flavors of instant noodles. Ranging from different prices and sizes. Another customer entered and the door chimed with the staff greets as the new customer walks to the counter. Amy slightly turn to peek at the new customer. She saw a tall guy wearing quite thick jacket with dark colored muffler and talking to the employee on the counter. She ignored them as she found an attractive packaging of instant cup noodle. She grabbed the cup and focusing on the layout, it says ‘Super Spicy Kimchi Flavored’ packed with striking red color.

As she heading to the counter she was quite surprised that there are now three person around the cashier counter and somehow the staff  was kinda intimidated by the three of them. Amy quickly try to hide and at the same time curious on what is happening right now. She tried to listen carefully on what the conversation all about as her distance is just few feet away and the only thing that blocked them from seeing her are the tall racks inside the store. She tried her best to get near and listen without being detected. She heard the voice of the staff speaking in a shaky and scared manner. She is being very cautious now as she suspects that  the three guys are trying to rob the store.

Their voices are getting louder and followed by shoutings. As the staff lean away from the counter but one guy who came earlier walking towards him. Amy heard the clearly the staff shouting asking him to stay away and do not come near. The other two guys seems to be looking around the store and almost caught glimpse of Amy’s  presence. Amy getting more panic and slowly sitting down. She embraced her legs and rest her chin on her knee. What can she do at this time, thinking how to react in this situation. The earlier cold nights turn sweaty and nerve wracking for her and all sort of situations popped out of her head. She is getting more anxious as she heard footsteps coming towards the racks. She can’t just sit there, she have to do something but what can she do now. She heard nothing from the store counter as she more occupied with the presence of the footsteps  meaning that one of the robbers coming to check the store. Slowly she stepped aside and try to move further away without being noticed.

The footsteps are  walking away now. She felt relieved but it is not over yet  for her. She needs to find a way to get outside and run. Then she saw a red door and she believe that this door is her way out from the store. It is the door to the store’s office and there must be a back door. She slowly crouch towards the door because if she stands she will be caught because the door located quite near to the store counter. Suddenly, she heard a gunshot and she was startled and the rack on her right shaking then dropped few packets of candies. The robbers were alerted and slowly approaching her. Amy getting worried as she can feel how bad it will be if she get caught. There are no other options for her, she needs to decide what to do before they manage to catch her. Without having any second thoughts, she bolted to the store’s office and quickly the two guys who were looking for her managed to see her but Amy right now are on the other side of the door and locked herself in there.

The two robbers rushed to the door and knocking the door. Amy could hear them ordering her to open the door or they will break the door. Amy getting desperate and scared. She holds the doorknob tightly and unable to think straight what she should do next. There are no positive thoughts in her head right now and only the worst thing popped out. She turned around and looking for something to buy her some time before the robbers decide to break the door. The office is quite tidy and organized and she found the working table and tried to push it against the door. That would help her for the moment. Loud knocking with shouting telling her to get out and the shaking of the door made Amy clueless on what her next action would be. Then she remembered the back door she was planning to use earlier, it should be in this room. She searched the room and looking for the door. She found one located far behind and run for it. She reached the doorknob and it is locked.

The banging on the door getting louder and louder. Amy believes the robbers might be breaking the door soon. Amy tried her best to open the door but it is locked. Amy looked around and search for some key that she can use, searching from wall to wall for key hanger. She cannot find such thing. She tried the drawers one by one. No keys at all. The door were opened a bit and she is now scared to death and trying to scream. She can’t think of anything else except the fact that her life now is in danger. Worst things flashes in front of her as she is trembling throughout her body.  Her knees became weak and shaken and she dropped both to the ground. The door then smashed so hard that it broke and the two robbers pushed the table that Amy had used to blocked the door. Amy can only scream and tears falling endlessly as she try to get up but her mind feel blank and empty. She does not know what can she do now.

As the two robbers almost done pushing the table aside, Amy let out a scream and run straight towards one of the robbers who were in front of her. She headbutt the robber and the impact landed on the chest and made three of them fall down. Amy does not stop there, then with all her might she stand up and stomped on the face of the robber that she was atop off. First stomp and the robber getting confused and feel blood flowing from his nose, Amy stomped for the second time and precisely hit his mouth. Amy broke few tooth and the robber passed out due to the shock and gruesome pain. Amy looked at the second robber who already on his stand. The robber looked scared and lost on how a girl can get  so brave and violent. His hand is shaking and the plan was not to hurt anyone but now he know if he does not do anything, he might end up like his friend covered in blood.

He warned Amy if she do anything stupid he is going to hurt her. Amy is fearless now, as her blank mind only think of surviving and she managed to take down one of them so she have the confidence at the same time. Ignoring his warning Amy slowly walked slowly then rushes towards him. She tried to do the same thing she did earlier but the robber managed to stopped her by holding her body and he slam Amy to the ground. Despite the pain of falling her head and body to the tiles, Amy grabbed his arms and forcefully push it up and strike his left waist with her knee. The attack barely flinched him because of the thick clothes he wore. Now the robber slapped Amy with his right hand, the slapped was so hard that Amy feels numb on her left cheek.

With a scream Amy managed to reached the robber’s face with her hands and scratch his face, with his furious voice and calling Amy a bitch the guy wrapped  his hand at her neck and strangled her hard. Amy feel pain and suffocating at the same time, she does not want to give up here. All she wants now is to run away and stay alive but the situation she is facing right now is tight. Amy placed her hands again to his face and forcefully push her thumbs to his eyes. For Amy, she needs to do everything she can right now and there are no other options. The pain of his eyeballs getting pushed is uncomfortable and punishing, he let go of his hand from strangling her and screaming from the excruciating pain. While he steps backward Amy who was still on the ground kicked his crotch and his scream stopped. The feeling of  pain on his eyes and crotch right now left him nothing but pain that run through all his body from top to bottom. He then fell down and passed out.

Amy did it and she try to recover by standing up but halfway her hair was grabbed and she screamed immediately. She forgot about the robber in the store counter. If he is here then what happened to the staff, did he killed him are the thoughts playing in her head. He dragged her back into the staff room. The pain is unbearable to Amy as her hair being pulled and forcefully dragged for few meters. If she struggles, the pain are doubled or more and she feels hopeless now. She barely feel her tears now as her anger infuriates her more. She have to do something to escape and end this misery.

He tied her hand and force her to sit down. The robber said something and slapped her few times and she can feel her lips bleeding now. Amy look at him with her furious look and the robber feel hesitated on what he should do with her. He punched her at the stomach made Amy feel pain and weaker. The robber asked her if she wants another one, Amy looked at him and screamed angrily. He landed another slap but this time Amy not even flinching but she gathered all her strength and leaps forward. Both of them fell down and Amy fell on the top of him. Amy then head but his nose few times before he pushed Amy aside. Then the robber stand up and kicked Amy on her chest then her stomach. The only word coming out from him is die, die, die and die.

After he let his final kick, he walks away and leave the room. He heard sirens from the outside and getting panicked. He rushes towards the back door but it was locked. He kicked the door over and over again but the door does not even budged. Amy slowly stand up while the robber trying forcefully opening the door. Amy rushes to him and managed to land an impact that made the robber backed to the door and Amy kicked his leg just above the knee and he forcefully kneeing and Amy let out another kick to his face. Just after that the police came in and rushingly handcuffed the robber and attend Amy.

It was a night that Amy would remember for the rest of her life. She was slapped, punched and kicked with blood dripping from her lips. Her quiet and hungry night turned out to be something that she have never expected in her life. Something that she would never ever wanted to happen again. She is thankful to be given the chance to get through from all that. Instead of just being a witness, she is the heroine who took down three man robbers alone.


Hi guys! Just a little bit info on the short story. I wrote this short story before I have the blog and I realized that I had it all this long in my Google Drive. Sorry for the lack of post but I think I can do this much for now.

Sorry if there are errors, do enjoy and let me know how it goes!

Ally’s Thoughts: Million Yen Women (2017)

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Hi everyone,

I have been sinfully binge-ing Netflix lately and for the record, today I just completed watching a Japanese drama with the above title. I was definitely hooked as I went through all 12 episodes from my lunch break until I reached home.

What is Million Yen Women all about?

A frustrated writer has arranged his home for 5 mysterious women, who all pay him a million yen as rent. What is the story behind this unusual arrangement? – IMDB

I was interested with the drama was because of the word ‘writer’ on the synopsis. I am sure we all know how it feels to feel frustrated when we could not write anything on the paper or screen in front of us. Plus, I am the type who would be so attracted to comedy, I decided to give this drama a go.

By the end of the last episode, I have come to a conclusion, this is a great and powerful drama! The drama filled with emotions and some can be so intense that it made me restless. I am proud to give this drama a 5 Stars rating.

However, I am not going to review any further about the drama. Simply because Ally’s Thoughts was never meant to be about reviews. It is all about the value or something that I want to talk about inspired by the dramas or movies I have watched.

The point or issue I want to talk about is:

Will you be able to forgive yourself?

In the drama, the main character’s father has murdered his own wife and the person who has an affair with the wife. The father also killed a policeman who was trying to stopped him. The father was sentenced to death for his crime.

To make things worst, the story progressed and Shin, the main character, came to a point where he prefer to be alone. In hope not to lose the things or the person he loved. His life was filled with tragedies and he blamed himself for it. He told himself, things would have changed if he could realized things earlier. It was too late for him and decided to live in seclusion.

This is the part that to me can happen to anyone, the part where we can’t stop blaming ourselves for the things that happened. Personally, I understand how it feels. For someone who did so many things before, we are bound to made one or two mistakes and some of them left us with deep scars. The more we think about it, the more we made things hard for ourselves.

The scars became a big alert warning whenever we want to move on. Basically, we will start to hear, I don’t want to repeat the same mistake, I am too afraid to try because I have failed before, I don’t want to take the chance and so on. We are so afraid to take that leap of faith and we keep on blaming ourselves.

To be extremely honest, sometimes I am trapped in that situation. It is very hard to forgive myself over the things I have done. Be it small or big. If you ask me, how did you managed it? My answer is simple, what else do you have? The only things that I have is time and chances. As long as I am breathing, I was given the chance to atone or correct my mistakes.

What about you? How do you forgive yourself?

Here is the trailer for the drama  if you are interested.

I am sorry for horrendous grammatical and spelling errors in this post. I basically came home and binged on the drama. Then, instantly I wrote all the things here with the absent of a straight and sharp brain.

There are actually other perspectives that I want to talk about in the drama. Not today! said my brain.

Until next time!

Ally’s Thoughts: When We First Met (2018)

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Hi everyone!

To be honest with you guys, I don’t remember the last time I went to the cinema. Previously, I would watch new movies every week. As for now, I’m not that active anymore. However, I spent my weekend watching movies on Netflix. Yes, I tried the free one month subscription. Mainly because I wanted to watch one Netflix original movie, When We First Met (2018).

I know some might say, this is just a typical romantic comedy with cliche plot… Do tell me what movies are not considered cliche nowadays. All I wanted to say is that, its all about how we enjoy watching it.

For those who are not familiar with my segments, this is not a movie review. This segment is my random thoughts about the movie. Usually I will talk about my experience discovering the values in the movie. Without further ado, lets get this thought of mine started.

The synopsis:

Noah spends the perfect first night with Avery, the girl of his dreams, but gets relegated to the friend zone. He spends the next three years wondering what went wrong – until he gets the unexpected chance to travel back in time and change that night – and his fate – over and over again.

Imagine this, you were given the ability or a chance to go back in time and do things that will fix the errors you made in the present time. You try to fix your relationship for example. However, whenever you changed something, things will changed in the future as well. Whatever you do come with consequences or so called the butterfly effect.

I believe we all experienced this before, ‘If only I can turn back time and do this…’ thinking when we regret or unsatisfied about something that happened. I have been in that kind of situation countless of time. However, I would just take a deep breath and accept it and move on.

I have a firm believe on things happened for a reason or more. I don’t believe in coincidence. It’s just which perspective I would look when something happened. No matter how bad things are, we don’t have the superpower or the capabilities to turn back time. For us, time just move forward without waiting us. If we get left behind, we will be left behind.

Simple way to put it, if you spent your young days doing meaningless things and that realization came very late to you, you can never get back the youth you had. All you have now, is the coming old days. Whats worst is when you started to regret without the strength to move on.

I know how tough it can be… especially when the things that happened was really heavy. You feel that the world fall on you and you can’t get up at all. The first person that can help you is yourself and not the first person to reach their hand to you. To me, if someone reach their hand to help you but you don’t want to help yourself, things will be hard and might now work out.

It is important for you to find the strength to help yourself first and only then you will be able to appreciate more the helps and supports from others.

Short Story 8

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“The weather looks clear today. Lovely, isn’t?”

Peter smiled at him and pats her shoulder tenderly.

“You know what, Amy? The sky was much clearer hundred years ago. From what I heard, the sky was vast and blue, and the air was so fresh that once the air enters your lungs, you will feel energize instantly! Isn’t that healthy?”

Amy reaches for Peter’s hand, gripped his hand firmly.

“Do you think, we will feel the same thing again? I wish we can. I want to taste that kind of air. We are quite lucky today that the air is pretty much better than other days so far. If we are lucky enough, it will rain in plain water instead of poisonous water. Perhaps, those days, they dances in the rain and have fun in it. How it came to this, Peter?”

Both of them knows the answer to the question. They knew the clear reason why everything totally changed. The world changed.

Human greed. Human ego. Human selfishness and stupidity. Just because they have the capabilities and resources, they did not think clearly on their actions.

“Mistakes are made, Amy. Some mistakes are too big to cover and involved others too. Let this be a lesson for us in the future like many mistakes done by the people before them. Some may never learn but some stood up and points up their mistakes. Right now, all we can do is to keep on living and voice out what humanity has learned.”

 

Short Story 7

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“I’m not brave enough… I guess… I mean… How hard it is to ask a girl out?” Nick disappointed of himself.

“Well, man. If you ask me, it is hard. Some people had it easy because both of them are on the same page. Some did not and some… I’d say they got lost in translation…”

Nick looked at Jeremy before he let out a big sigh.

“I guess I’m the one with the ‘did not’ group. Oh man! I’m seriously frustrated. What should I do? I really like her!”

Jeremy who was wiping the glass frame in front of him stopped and turned to Nick.

“You know what, Nick. You are overreacting and overthinking about it. Why don’t you text her now and ask her out? Because that is how you start the dating process. It is step number one! Gosh, you are making my work slow.”

Nick ignored what Jeremy just said and instantly took off his gloves and grab his mobile phone from his pocket. He paused and take a deep breath before starts to tap his screen.

Hey, Ellia! How are you? Do you have any plans tonight?

“Alright sent! I can’t help to feel excited! Do you feel the same, Jeremy?”

Jeremy pretends he didn’t listen to Nick and focusing on his cleaning duty. He doesn’t want to put extra time today because he prefers to get home early and watch his favorite series.

A few minutes later, Nick received a reply.

“Hey, Jeremy! She replied me. Oh nooo… She said she had other plans. I can’t live anymore. She rejected me, man!”

Suddenly a cleaning cloth flew to Nick’s face and slowly fall down to the floor.

“That is what you get for not doing your work when you supposed to work. You better clean it up fast or the mops will be the next thing flying.”

A Novella: My Unsent Love Letters by Ally L. Mare

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Did you still remember that I wrote a novella and share it in Inkitt? I finally posted all the chapters in Inkitt and you can finally read it until the end!

I can’t post the novella here. Also, I will not upload it as an ebook. However, you can read the novella using the link below.

My Unsent Love Letters by Ally L Mare

I really need your help on this. If you find my novella is interesting and exciting, please share it with your friends. It would be a great deal if you do.

Blurb

A hard breakup made James’ life difficult and he had no motivation on his work or his life. Things changed when he accidentally met his college crush after few years since their graduation. James could not tell how he feels directly, so he wrote his crush, Anna, love letters which he could not send.

All comments are appreciated! Thank you very much and have a great weekend!

This Is All About Desire And Selfishness – Confession Wednesday

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People do not understand my behavior. They think I am a fool and can’t get over my break up. Honestly, I have no answer for that. It’s just my body and mind can’t think of anything else.

I feel bad. Sometimes I feel so bad and feel guilty for a lot of things. I feel guilty and I feel so messed up. I always believe that I am a man of my word. I tend to do everything I can to fulfill my promises. I made quite a lot of promises with her. I always try hard to fulfill my promises. When we don’t have anything anymore. Those promises should be left behind.

Not for me. All those promises will stay. All those promises are my words. That is my obligation to fulfill my promises. I don’t make promises that I don’t tend to keep. I will keep it and make it a reality. I am totally serious regarding promises.

People may call me a fool. If I can’t keep my promises and fulfill them, what makes me worth to other people. I can’t live that way. It’s just how I’ve been living. It’s my way of life. A philosophy. I can’t be a good man if I never keep my promises. I can’t be a good man if I can’t work my words. I can never be a good person first if I keep breaking them all.

Bluntly, I don’t mind dying right now. I don’t really care the aftermath of dying anymore. If death comes, let it come. I just feel like escaping all of this. The thing that binds me if I’m dead. What will be of my parents? At least, I want to die yet they have something to live on.

I totally give up deep inside. I don’t even feel like working anymore. I just come to the office. Not having the motivation and all. I feel restless and my thoughts float elsewherIt’sIts not like I’m begging for you to come back. It’s just I have no clue on how to work my life.

I’m quite ashamed of myself actually. Ashamed towards the people around me. Especially my parents. I didn’t tell my parents that we broke up. I feel ashamed that I lost something that I fought for. If they asked about you. I would simply told you are busy. Then, I changed the topic. Or keep silent. One of the feeling is ashamed right now. It’s like I can’t keep up my relationship better. I feel like a losing man. Loser.

I felt sadness before. This time its more than that. I don’t know how to live up with this disappointment. The more I don’t want to think of it. The more it haunts me. My chest feels empty and suffocating. Tears falling. The feeling of loneliness shrouded me everywhere I go.

Despite that I went out and eat good food. Had chat with people. Meeting more people. Work here and there. Still your images are inside my head. I believe this is what people said ‘true happiness’. I lost my true happiness and there are no other happiness can keep me happy like it used to.

If you want me to find a new friend. I told you before, I’m a very cautious person when I want someone to enter my life. I have a very terrible trust issue with someone I just knew. Didn’t I told you before that you are also the best friend I ever had. From a junior to my girlfriend and my sister. You are the most special person in my life.

I know I wrote quite a bit long. But honestly I just letting my mind roam. I’m searching and answer. A way out. I don’t take this as a curse. More like a duty. My duty was to ensure that I keep all my promises to you.

However, if there is another guy in your life. I have to back down. That is the end road for me. I can’t move forward and can’t see a better route. I don’t know why I cried a lot lately. My heart tremble and soft. Everytime I have thoughts of you, my tears dropped. I don’t know about you but this happened to me often lately.

I want to know why you didn’t wish me on my birthday. Do  you hate me? Have you forgotten? Do you want to avoid me. You told me that to ‘treat you as I treat my KUIS friends’. I can’t. You will always be the special one. I bought you a gift so that you know I don’t want to cut off this relationship. Yet, it was you who severe the line. I don’t blame you. You did mentioned to me that you would not text men anymore. Well, I’m a man. I wonder if I’m a girl, would you text me?

I’m curious on a lot of things. Regarding you. Why is that you video call someone early in the morning. I want to know. We were dating at that time and you didn’t told me about it. I was sleeping and yet you are busy with other guy. Yes, I am jealous but that’s all in the past. I’m a crazy guy to bring that up now. All this happened out of my curiosity. There are other things that I want to know too.

It feels like I can’t stop writing. I just want to write all my emotions and thoughts, I think all I want to do know is escaping all of these. I just feel like running away. I’m clueless on my next move. I want to aim something but the motivations are lost. It’s just not there anymore. I just feel like crave my heart out and die.

Yes I am depressed. I am also stressed. I don’t feel like working nor staying home. Too tired. Clueless. Lost. Empty. Sad. Messed. I do wonder sometimes, why you had all those unlucky things such as cuts and so on. But not me! I need it! Right now I totally need it! I want to have a flu then I lost my memories! It’s cool and also better! I feel like totally running. I want to walk to some places and die on the road. Give it all to me! You don’t need that all. I am the one who needs it.

I am the loser in this story. I am the one who failed to move on. It hurts so much that no one can understand.

After all that, there is this one feeling inside me feels like pulling you harder to me. I don’t know why. It feels like calling you. Again and again. Hoping and believing one day you will come and answer my call. The more I let out, the stronger the feeling right now.

I missed you so much dear. so much.


July 2014

Reading This Will Make My Day #NotionPress

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“You know that you are a bad person. All the things you ever did, are mistakes and errors. You are an animal in human flesh and you don’t deserve any pardon or be forgiven. You should just go ahead and do it. When you are no longer here, you don’t have to worry about making other mistakes. Do it!”

This is an excerpt from a short story I have submitted to Notion Press.

The theme of this short story is depression. The story is about a guy that need to decide on what he should do about his life. To be honest, it was inspired by my depressing August. Pretty much something close and I hope you enjoy it.

It is a competition so I will be so happy and grateful if you share your thoughts about it and share the story!

You can find the story here!

What should I do?

I would also like to include a special shout out to my wonderful friend a.k.a editor (which she generously helped me on this one) Afifah Adnan! You can find her blog here and her Instagram here. Thank you for your help!

MR. LIFELESS PT.10

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After his failed attempt in getting closer to Teressa Ling. Mr. Lifeless can’t wait to look forward for the next class this week so he can finally get to know Teressa Ling better.

“I’m not giving up. She responded to me quite friendly. I believe that is my chance!”

Mike was not amused that morning and feel annoyed by Mr. Lifeless.

“Well dude, I’m sure you will get your chance later. So, can you please shut up about Teressa Ling already? I’ve been enduring your yapping and blabbing about her since last week! It was your dumb fault for not confirming her Facebook account. Not to mention that you even went through the whole list and still can’t find her.” Mike fasten his steps to the class. He opened the door and quickly to his seat, ditching Mr. Lifeless behind him.

“You need to chill, dude.”

As soon as Mr. Lifeless entered the room, he quickly scanned for the figure he wanted to see. The figure of a girl that has caught his attention. The figure of Teressa Ling.

“She is not here… Is she late?”

He walked through the usual seat that Teressa Ling usually seated and take his seat besides Mike.

“Mike, she is not here today?” He asked.

Mike pulling a straight face after he took a deep sigh. He ignored Mr. Lifeless and showing the sign of ultimate disappointment in his friend.

“No wonder you were called Lifeless.”

“Dude… What’s wrong with you? I’m trying to have a ‘life’ here and get rid of this unbearable title. The whole class called me Lifeless plus the whole lecturers that teaches us called me that.” He looked at Mike with dissatisfied face.

Without paying attention, Mike just pulled out his notebooks and ignored him completely.

The class went on without any sign of Teressa Ling. Mr. Lifeless feels disappointed because he was looking forward to meet her again. To endure a week made him feels like a year of waiting. He needs to do something. He can’t wait for another week just to meet her.

Suddenly, an idea sparked in his head. Why don’t he just asks her friend about her. Why not? He just need a little bravery like he pulled off last time. That moment of courage that will bear fruits. He is sure of it.

“Alright!” He shouted and the class suddenly turned dead silent.

The lecturer turned around and looking at Mr. Lifeless.

“Yes, Mr. Lifeless? You have anything to share with the whole class today? I would be so happy if you can come here and explain this chapter to your friends. Of course I am willing to give you extra marks.

All the eyes in the class are on him. He smiled and scratch his head.

“Eheh… Nothing ma’am. Keep on going and I am sorry for disturbing the class. Eheh…”

The lecturer turned back to the white board and continue on explaining the subject which Mr. Lifeless don’t even know which subject are they discussing about right now.

After the lecturer left the class. Mr. Lifeless rushed to the group of girls that was seen with Teressa Ling last week.

“Hi, excuse me. Teressa Ling is not here today?” His voice was a little shaky.

“Oh, the lover boy… Yeah, she was unable to attent the class today.” A girl answered him.

“I see. Uhmm… Can you help me? How can I contact her?” He said it. He said the shameful sentence and made him feels like he is one with no shame at all.

“Hey, I thought she gave you her Facebook account last week. You didn’t contact her there?” Said another girl in the group.

“I couldn’t find the right Teressa Ling on Facebook. That’s why…” His face definitely showed disappointment.

“Okay fine.” Said the first girl who answered her.

“Hey? Is it okay to give him?” The second girl showed her doubt.

“It’s going to be fine. Teressa needs some spices in her life too. Okay, I will give you her number but if I hear anything about you doing something stupid… I WILL EAT YOU! UNDERSTAND?” She suddenly gave Mr. Lifeless the impression of Death choking him by his neck slowly.

“Err… Certainly!” Mr. Lifeless was unsure how to reply her.

After he received the number from the girl. He quickly saved the number and stared the phone screen.

“Should I call her now? Or should I call her later? What should I do? Gosh… I can’t make up my mind. I don’t care! I’ll just do it now!”

He tap on the phone with the call icon and the number connected. Then, the called was picked up.

“Hello, Teressa Ling?” Said Mr. Lifeless.

“Hello?” He heard a deep voice from the other side of the phone.

He was confused. Why would there be a guy’s voice? Who is this guy? Did the girl give him the wrong number? Questions flinging one by one inside his head and he freezes instantly.

TIAADAS – The Djinn And I

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“Tell me… You have found me with great hardship and countless of adventures… I will grant you a wish. What do you desired most?” said the Djinn.

“Yes. I have traveled far. Seas to seas. Continents to continents. Cities to cities. In order to find someone who can grant me my wish. O Djinn, I desired death. Grant me death! For I do not belong in this world.”

The Djinn looked confused and puzzled.

“Why would you desired death? You look young. You look strong and reliable. You  look perfectly healthy,” the Djinn asked.

“O Djinn, I may look young, strong, reliable and healthy. Those are just physical appearances. No one knows the burden I carried. No one knows how my hopes were crushed. No one knows my disappointments. No one was there when I need them. No one understand how hard I tried to stay.”

“Are you sure you want me to grant you death? What about your family?”  asked the Djinn.

“I have long left them. They don’t need me. They may take good care of me but that is not what I want. I hate them. Ever since I was small. They doesn’t understand how I feel. They ruined my childhood. They fed me negativity. I carried the  burden alone and I am just a burden to them. I should have died younger when I had the chance. But still, here I am. Living and breathing. I should have died when I was a little baby but I am here still alive. They left me alone…”

“Are you sure you want me to grant you death? What about  your friends?” asked the Djinn.

“Friends? I am here alone. I cried alone. I was left alone. When I need them, they left me. When I  gave them my attention, they betrayed me. When I spend my time for them, they took me for granted. When I screamed for help… None came except to pass by and gave me a cold look. I believe in them but they did not trust me…”

“Are you sure you want me to grant you death? What about your lover” asked the Djinn.

“Hahaha. Lover? They left me when I need them the most. They left me in the dark. They took back the promises they made to me. They wound me and gave me scars. I gave my all. I tried my best. I never gave up on them. I keep the hope in me burning but they gave me to the cold wind.”

“Are you sure you want me to grant you death? What about your faith?” asked the Djinn.

“I believe in my faith. I know that I will damned to hell for eternity if I made this wish. The people around  me doesn’t have the same level of faith. They lost their faith. They do not trust their God. They disobeyed their God. If I am the only one left, let me just joined them. Or at least, let me leave them.”

“This is my last question. Are you sure you want me to grant you death? What about yourself?” asked the Djinn.

“I gave up. Every time I believe there was a spark of hope in my heart. It ended up as just a spark. Every time I gave myself a chance. The chance never came. Every time I let myself open. I ended up letting the wrong person in. Not to mention the stupidity and the sins I have committed. I am tired of trying. I am tired of believing. I am tired of hoping. I am tired of breathing. I am tired crying alone when I wished someone would believe in me and accept me in their life. I am tired finding the reason to hold this life. I am tired… of everything.”

“Then, let me grant your wish. However, I am a Djinn and not your Grim Reaper. I will left you with this dagger. Take it and take your own life. It is your choice. If you do not. It is your choice. To live or to die, it is your choice.” The Djin made a dagger magically appeared and put the dagger in front of him.

“Why can’t you just grant my wish and let me die without pain? Aren’t you a Djinn who grant wishes?”

“I am a Djinn, yes but I am not your Grim Reaper. Let you be your own.”